Papa

My father died 3 weeks ago and his death was shocking to many and I can't make myself believe this did happen. I knew there is a high chance he might die because of his condition but I always had a feeling it's going to be alright no matter how difficult his heart operation was. I just thought he is not that kind of person who would die, he had a strong personality and was incredibly enthusiastic. I thought anyone but not him! Then I had a phone call and I was told that he died. I feel so pity for him for all the things he was planning to do, things that still were waiting for him. He was a special person in my life and loosing him isn't easy, and there are still so many things I haven't told him, many places we haven't gone together. Every day I am trying to imagine how I could talk to him and tell him about things happening to me, listen to his stories, and I know there is no point, but I can't help it. I am alright, however, in general, life still goes on...