annoyed

Several months ago I started creating our wedding book album and thought I copied it into external HD. It's almost a year since our wedding and I thought it's just about the right time to get back to complete it and order online. So I open my hard drive, looking for it, and realize there is nothing! It was never copied and no way to get it back.... More than weeks' time work is gone! I am frustrated, angry, annoyed and unmotivated... But I really want this album! I have to start from the beginning...